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Thursday, December 25, 2008 @ 7:51 PM
"What I've Done"
In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no alibi
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies
[Pre-Chorus:]
So let mercy come
And wash away
What I’ve done
[Chorus:]
I'll face myself
To cross out what i’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what i’ve done
Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands of uncertainty
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]
For what I’ve done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m forgiving what I’ve done!!!
[Chorus]
What I’ve done
Forgiving what I’ve done
In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no alibi
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies
[Pre-Chorus:]
So let mercy come
And wash away
What I’ve done
[Chorus:]
I'll face myself
To cross out what i’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what i’ve done
Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands of uncertainty
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]
For what I’ve done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m forgiving what I’ve done!!!
[Chorus]
What I’ve done
Forgiving what I’ve done
@ 7:50 PM
"Somewhere I Belong"
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
[Repeat Chorus]
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today
[Repeat Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
[Repeat Chorus]
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today
[Repeat Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong
@ 7:47 PM
"Numb"
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
@ 4:08 AM
2day was fun 4 me...
this was wad happened...
woke up at 7.30+...made my bed,iron my shirt&took my shower...after that around 8.30+ go downstairs wait 4 my aunt&uncle 2 fetch me..we promised 2 go 2 the zoo..that was my 1st trip there...haha..believe it?we ate our breakfast at the kfc there..i had shrooms burger only...cos lazy want to chew..i shared the drink wif my the other cousin...then we go proceed 2 the entrance...2 nice&young ladies welcomed us...there were 3 parrots..1 green while the other 2 were white..the white ones was mating...when people watch rite...belive it..the female one was damn angry sia...i was lyk..ok..then the male one was lyk trying 2 calm down the female..the green one was eating lyk nth took place...then after that we go see the monkeys..nth much there..so proceeded 2 the sea animals show..there was this seal which had a mouth lyk the...something disgusting..cannot remember..it swam using its stomach...very cute..since 1 of my baby cousin was tired...we had to separate 4 while cos my aunt wanted 2 put him into sleep..so me& my cousin go see the fish wif my mum..we saw people picnic there&i missed that kind of moment 4 a while..then we go see the elephant show..there were 3 of them..named..intan,jacky&the other one cannot remember..after that go to the kangaroo place,wanted to feed it but we came too late...so had to wait until 4pm 2 feed it..so we go ride elephant...my mum didnt follow suit cos she say later pain..very nice leh the ride..the body hair very sharp&i keep touching..then hungry cos lunch time ready...eat kfc AGAIN...after that go take the horse carriage ride..the horse very slow..the trainer hit the body&i say STOP ANIMAL ABUSE...haha..the person just laugh also..then we go walk around&i go see the rumah kampong ....fed the lambs..fed the pony(s) too...my aunt said i was disgusting cos nvr wash hands..soon almost 4pm so we went to the kangaroos section to feed them...the kangaroos were very fast when it comes to feeding time..we got number 1 so we fed them 1st...the hair so nice that i kept stroking the body..the kangaroo very cute felt lyk bringing it back home 2 keep it as a pet...impossible...so we walk around go see the baboons..the ass was red!haha!!one of the baboons had an ass which looked lyk a human brain!i also saw one baboon searching 4 another baboon's lice on the body....so cute...we stood there lyk 10mins lyk that then we made our way out of the exit..
Labels: words can't described how i enjoyed myself
Tuesday, December 23, 2008 @ 9:23 PM
changed blogskin,had a new haircut&going to the zoo on 25th with 2 brats and their parents...which is my aunt and uncle...
i had to babysit the 2 brats yesterday cos their parents go airport send the maid to the hometown..they messed the whole hus&i was also messed the whole hus..ahaa...ok lah...their parents came to fetch them at 6.30+ after the whole thing was settled..i ate dinner..after watched "our makan places:lost and found" then watched this countdownof people who was filthy rich,famous and dunno wad ah..then watched the little nyonya..robert was wtf he violated yuzhu cos he mistaken her for yueniang..pity yuzhu..then the zhenzhu just observe how robert violated yuzhu...i rather save my little sister than just watch...but nvm..anyway the chen xi so the pitiful..forced marriage with zhenzhu..nvm..
i gtg..post later ah..
Sunday, December 14, 2008 @ 10:26 PM
erm...
saturday go uncle hus again..early seh..cos my grandma there..then i nth do..play with the 2 little brats lah..pain seh they step my back and leg..so the wtf..so i angry,i piggyback the both of them..actually want to play the game but later grandma scold ah..lazy seh want to hear her nag...so i just play and play and play with the brats...soon got bored with them so i watched this nicholas cage movie..not bad lah..even though dont understand..just take a break...then eat lunch..since got stomach pain,i eat less lah..i then continue watch the movie..around 2+ go home..
then i thirsrty at the bus stop so i go 7-11 go buy slurpee..there was this crazy man staring at me...i was like also stare back ah...i donno wad was in his mind when i look at him,he go stare at other people..i was like....thank god ah...after buy slurpee,i took the bus 198..i took a sip of the drink after i seat and he scold me say...
bus driver:''u want 2 find $500 ma?"
me:"sorry ah.."
bus driver:''u want 2 find $500 ma?"
me:"sorry lah!"
my mum:"give me the drink.."
when he saw me give the drink to mama,he walked away..he thought he could continue 2 scold me since i'm alone..but..aiyo..some more he scold me in singlish...learn better english if want to scold people lah..make a fool out of himself..then,when i reach the bus stop at my home there,i like drink the slurpee in front of him...my mom say very rude..i was like..
me:"he drink can...i drink cannot..."
my mum:"nvm lah.."
me:"ask him go suck his "thumb" lah.."
my mum:"so the ah lian"
me:"later at the junction,he got accident ah..only he die..the rest saved"
my mum:"aiyo..."
that was all ah...
Friday, December 12, 2008 @ 6:22 AM
ah that time go pulau tekong fun ah...not bad the boat journey..the water level very high&very nice ah..but b4 take the boat,breakfast at macdonalds..i had big breakfast..after that feel like want 2 vomit seh..the day not so hot lah,just nice..then go the place to seat at E company...the parade was very grand and there was nth that couldnt attract my attention..the 5 flags...colors are orange,blue green,yellow&red..if not wrong lah..havent upload the pics and videos cos kinda busy now ah..so later i do ah...and then there was music b4 the recruits assembled at the parade after their 2.4km route march..when they went into the parade many people gave their support by shouting the company name ah..there was E,F,J&H company..so nice seh..later i upload u see ah..then there was this BMTC roar and run..nice ah..then my mom went down to put on the cap on my bro the head..he was sweating and we took pics 2gether..after that take bus to the donno pasir ris MRT station& took the train&go to JP..i ate slice fish with rice...ok lah..that was all 4 the day..
then today..
go uncle hus near JP there...b4 go there,go library 2 return all the comics..nice ah...then walk to the hus&my aunt &the maid only at home with the sons lah..they cried so loudly that i kinda like wtF..but nvm..wanted 2 play the X-Box but donno how to set-up so just watched survivor,Gabon...very nice..then grandma came with my bro..he fetch her&the maid from tampines..then,around 5+ like that go JP(again) to see someone lah...secret..so ate at banquet..i had mee pok(dry)&after that go popular buy new PC game..its called SCAR...racing ah...i standard one ah..racing..then bro buy webcam..thats all ah...
Thursday, December 11, 2008 @ 8:47 PM
erm...
that time go library ok lah...i borrowed 4 flash(er) comics..1st,me and jxx go 3rd floor to look 4 some war&history books...in the end...nth nice to borrow so we went & walk around the place lah...we saw many people creating a nuisance 4 the people there...but they nvr disturb us lah...so we went to a corner and read the books that we took and waited for joey,hong lin and zy to come...they late seh...but nvm..zy called me and ask me 2 wait at the staircase and i waited..i saw HL followed by zy and joey..gave them a fren hug...long time no see mah...so i took them to the place where i was and sit at the seats..we talk abt where to go next..so we decided to go to JP but i didnt follow cos lazy..i waited 4 them at the playground 4 like donno how long...i palyed the balancing beam and eventually strained my muscles...HL went home 1st cos he had to go home..so we played until 5+ and went home..we(me&jxx)took the same bus and chatted b4 i alighted..ok lah...
Monday, December 8, 2008 @ 9:23 PM
ok..i'm back...
today going library with jojo joget/joey and ziyuan..i'm thinking who i wanna ask along....cos ziyuan say bring more people...i was like ok lah...miss my pal seh...ermm,actually nth much to write today..but tmr...going to pulau takong to see my bro the P.O.P(passing out parade)he will end his basic military training at there...after so long...guess wad time will i be leaving house?6.30am leh...i hope i got no problem waking up...breakfast at the changi terminal.....very tired seh after the whole day....must reach there at 8.30am....and then they give 2 tickets only..i was like wtf?!so budgeted leh...then must take picture lah...aiyo...so very the troublesome...but nvm...get to see the recruits marching...i bet it so grand...cos the recruits have been training since a long time ago...i'm kinda interested in army cos of the tight disipline(is that how u spell it?)and they having the new uniform nxt year,i guess?erm...gtg..cos...got housework to do...me,housework?nvm...
Wednesday, December 3, 2008 @ 10:20 PM
hey guys!!!!,
this is honglin in sahara's blog. if i am gonna write a compo sry.
hey. the turkey trip was awsome. i start at the airplane. it was a 12 hr flight from singapore and i tell u sleeping in the plane is a crisis. i cant even move cause i got squeezed by people.
after 12 hrs on the plane i went to the tour straight away. and i had no sleep. it was already 6am in turkey which is 12pm in singapore. on the firsst place. it was a mosque. i 4gt the name. than we went to hier sophier. it was very cool. it was once a church converted to a mosque which is now museum
we ate food which was quite nice but got sick of it. we traveled from istan bul to bursa to ??? to capiconia. we sayed there for two nights it was cool. onj the first night, we went to the turkish night performance. it was so cool and in the next morning we went balloning. even more awsome.
sry to jump but i cant really type ll the details out. too much so i will just tell u next time. ok
on the last day, we finally get to eat chinese food!!!! for lunch. went for a cruise too. ate many weird things at a local food land area... At last. we went to a morden shopping mall. the ones we see in singapore. the last mall we went all sucked except the grand bazzer( 4000+ shops) not so morden there.
took a plane back home after that again another 12 hrs of non stop flight. no sleeping. sigh
Tuesday, December 2, 2008 @ 10:38 PM
ok..idk why everytime i want to write a post,i would start with 'ok...'standard one ah..
my best pal is back....after so long...had so many things to share with him...secrets and some stuff....and the moment he signed in,i chat with him...he's busy for the moment so i'll just post this thing..i discovered that joey,hong lin is organising a 6A gathering at ECP on monday..maybe i not going cos of some inconvenience...danniel is like telling me to go with him and buy the food..i said see first...hong lin said he will try to change the location to west coast instead of ECP cos too far..and many people are not going cos of the distance...i'm still considering abt my presence felt there now..
then in the morning...my mom shouted my name...'SAHARA!!!!'i was dreaming abt me climbing mount everest seh...almost reach the summit and when i looked down cos of her calling my name,i fell....arghh....she brought me to eat brunch at the coffeeshop...walao...nvm...err....i gtg now cos got something on...
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